Story of my life
Yeah I get why y’all would wanna hate on my momma for. Y’all ain’t even on my momma’s level. She’s independent, she’s strong, bought her own house, bought her own car, paying all her bills, raising 7 kids and still eating good. Instead of being happy for my mom for all of the success she’s achieved y’all choose to hate. y’know what that’s cool cuz I can already see karma’s chewing your asses up. HA! Haters.
I’m sick and tired of trying to keep the whole family from falling apart. And no matter how hard I try, no matter how many times I get the family back together again. It all falls back to pieces. It’s only a matter of time until the whole family breaks apart for good.
He may have left you behind and broke a couple pieces, yeah sure a few pieces might be missing but I’m here to try and fix it. When I heard the news it caught me by surprise, and I saw it in your eyes that you’ve been hurt by his lies. I didn’t understand it you said “he’s a nice guy” guess that was just another lie. You texted me and told me all about it, told me how you felt and all that had happened. Asked you how you were doing and you said that you were fine, but I can see it in your eyes I don’t need to read your mind. To know that he had hurt you and that the cut was deep. And he’s the reason why you would cry yourself to sleep. How the break-up made you feel insecured, but baby girl you’re beautiful and lovely so don’t be insecured.
Music. I guess its a song but its not done, but I wanted to share it.
People wanna know why I’m not pursuing music, when they hear me rap they say I’m good but honestly that was just amusement. If I pursued a career in music it would be for the right reasons, to spread love, send a message and teach life lessons. Not to make money or to pull bitches and hoes, or have a mansion filled with fancy cars or a closet full of fancy clothes. Young money? Drake and Lil wayne? Amusing. I don’t wanna be a part of it if that’s what you call music. Music is much more than just a catchy hook and beat, Music moves the soul, has a meaning and is deep. Music is remedy to the soul, Music has the power to connect us all.
Idk just a little something I whipped up to vent my frustration. I honestly don’t even know what I put here.
I’ve been short tempered and growing tired of the mess, its getting real hard dealing with all this stress. I’m about to explode just take me away, Cuz i’m afraid that I won’t make it another day. All the friends that I have claimed to be real when they all seem fake, and the girls that I’ve had all but a few were real and the rest were mistakes. I’m a complicated person hard to understand, putting myself through phases to turn into a man. But damn. I feel like a failure, I’m in desperate need of a savior. Someone who can take all this hate and bitterness, someone to help take this weight off my chest. I swear to god i’m on the verge of exploding, I feel like giving up i’m almost done hoping. Quickly losing faith and trust in myself, If I must I’ll beg for help, if it means saving me from myself.
Can’t take it anymore. I’m trying my best to forgive the people that have constantly wronged me. But its hard when every time I give them the chance they seem to fuck up even. All this hate is making me bitter. I’m about to explode. My family is slowly drifting apart. UGH! Such an asshole!
School is going to start kicking my ass soon. It seems like I won’t have any free time for anyone and even myself. I have a presentation on endoscopes, an exam tomorrow and a conference meeting at Stanford on saturday and A LOT more to come. UGH!
I was watching this movie called “he’s mine, not yours” and this movie really brought back some repressed memories. I remember when my girlfriend at the time tested me. I was so hurt and so mad. She made another facebook account posing as another girl to try and test me to see if I’m faithful. That shit hurt me so bad its the only emotional scar I have that’s never really closed. I’ve always trusted her even though she shouldn’t be trusted. I never gave up on us even though she did. I played along with her games satisfy her ego. She’s always doubted and mistrusted even though it should be the other way around. I was on point with all her games, my gut was right about her all along and should have left her alone and pursued someone who I knew would be worth the heartache. But a part of me saw something in her that no one else did, and I’m glad that part of her has really flourished. She took a peice of me and really made it her own. Now even though she put me through hell I’m happy for her, I just hope that what she really has and what she feels is real.
I don’t even know why I wrote this. It just really hit me. I wish it was longer but I’ve been feeling nauseous -__-
You say you really love her but then you left her for another, going around hoping you’d find someone better. If the best is what you’re looking for then look no further cuz she’s in front of you open your heart, you found her. But you took her for granted and led her on, then when it came to prove your love you left her on her own. It was stupid of you to let her go, She truly is the best and now you know. The next time you get balls to ask a girl out, really get to know her and what she’s all about.
